I am

recalibrating

no longer who I was

becoming more the person I have always been

I catch fat snowflakes on my tongue

Shrink to fit into tonka toy trunks

love hesitantly

always, always holding something back

(I will throw this away someday soon, I will, I will)

dance foolishly around my house

(sometimes even when someone is watching)

(sometimes even when someone is dancing with me)

I am

trying

to challenge my values (and maybe sometimes yours)

so that I may find the truth

(my truth)

and not apologise for it

I am

wanting

beautiful things to come from my hands

 two boys to grow into fine men

to live simply

to love freely

to speak clearly

to shout out in my strengthening voice

that life is better when its raw

when the truth is known

(even when its grungy)

I am

(loving you)

(seeking)

me